When Love Begins..

It took me a while thinking whether to blog about this.  I mean, ever since I started blogging I haven't really shared anything about having someone special not even with my baby's dad. This is the very first time that I will be sharing about what really  happened to me. Let me begin by  narrating to you my past experience about love.

You see, my experience thought me to become braver and stronger. My longest relationship lasts for three years and it's a one hell roller coaster! I must admit that it started really well, I was so happy and in love back then. Until one day, my heart gave up..My mind won between the battle over my heart. I was fed up with all his  lies, and his attitude. I did everything to make it work and to fight for it, but I guess there is really a point in our lives that we get tired. The love was still there when I decided to end it up, and it was the hardest decision I have made. Seeing him cried, knelt down and begging for me not leave him was really painful but I need to be  brave. I have to regain my self value, which I believe I lost in the middle of loving him too much. Too much that I forgot to leave a little for myself. After that relationship, I never did love again the same way I have loved him. I did try opening my heart again, but every time someone knocks I just opened it a little and then banged the door. Love for me that time was over rated. It's like I'm allergic to it, then I met my baby's father, I did hope for something, but then again it's not my road to  forever. Though I was the happiest when he gave me an angel. Having my baby was the greatest gift from above. She's more than a blessing, She is my life, and my everything. I told myself that I have to be the best mother and father to her. I am really happy with my life that I have nothing to ask for, until one day.. 

Someone wakes me up from a very long sleep.. There again, I found myself falling in love.. At first, I tried avoiding it,  I even tried to convinced myself that he's just another guy who plays around. There was something about our conversation that made me smile or simply made my day. I can't remember when was the last time I felt this way. The more I denied what I felt, the more I realized that I was falling for him. I was too scared to even admit it, but I can't deny the fact that it made me even happier.  He made me smile again, made me laugh, and he made me fall in love again. Falling in love is indeed the most wonderful feeling a person can feel.  It's like waking up each morning with so much gratitude.  You just hear every pound of your heart "thump thump!". Damn! I'm in love!

Our Love story begins with so many trials, yes, it's unusual but I must say It's worth a shot. I've known him for 1 month and 6 days, but it seems that I have known him my entire life. Is he the one I'm going to spend my whole life with? I do pray and hope so, but I won't expect too much, I might end up getting hurt again. Let's just say I'm really happy right now and we're taking it slow, one step at a time. So that's it for now, I'll create another post soon to better introduce him to everyone. I'm really glad you take some time to read my special post about love.. Life is short, let's laugh, live and Love! :)