It took me a while thinking whether to blog about this. I mean, ever since I started blogging I haven't really shared anything about having someone special not even with my baby's dad. This is the very first time that I will be sharing about what really happened to me. Let me begin by narrating to you my past experience about love.
You see, my experience thought me to become braver and stronger. My longest relationship lasts for three years and it's a one hell roller coaster! I must admit that it started really well, I was so happy and in love back then. Until one day, my heart gave up..My mind won between the battle over my heart. I was fed up with all his lies, and his attitude. I did everything to make it work and to fight for it, but I guess there is really a point in our lives that we get tired. The love was still there when I decided to end it up, and it was the hardest decision I have made. Seeing him cried, knelt down and begging for me not leave him was really painful but I need to be brave. I have to regain my self value, which I believe I lost in the middle of loving him too much. Too much that I forgot to leave a little for myself. After that relationship, I never did love again the same way I have loved him. I did try opening my heart again, but every time someone knocks I just opened it a little and then banged the door. Love for me that time was over rated. It's like I'm allergic to it, then I met my baby's father, I did hope for something, but then again it's not my road to forever. Though I was the happiest when he gave me an angel. Having my baby was the greatest gift from above. She's more than a blessing, She is my life, and my everything. I told myself that I have to be the best mother and father to her. I am really happy with my life that I have nothing to ask for, until one day..
Someone wakes me up from a very long sleep.. There again, I found myself falling in love.. At first, I tried avoiding it, I even tried to convinced myself that he's just another guy who plays around. There was something about our conversation that made me smile or simply made my day. I can't remember when was the last time I felt this way. The more I denied what I felt, the more I realized that I was falling for him. I was too scared to even admit it, but I can't deny the fact that it made me even happier. He made me smile again, made me laugh, and he made me fall in love again. Falling in love is indeed the most wonderful feeling a person can feel. It's like waking up each morning with so much gratitude. You just hear every pound of your heart "thump thump!". Damn! I'm in love!
Our Love story begins with so many trials, yes, it's unusual but I must say It's worth a shot. I've known him for 1 month and 6 days, but it seems that I have known him my entire life. Is he the one I'm going to spend my whole life with? I do pray and hope so, but I won't expect too much, I might end up getting hurt again. Let's just say I'm really happy right now and we're taking it slow, one step at a time. So that's it for now, I'll create another post soon to better introduce him to everyone. I'm really glad you take some time to read my special post about love.. Life is short, let's laugh, live and Love! :)
Rica, I'm happy for you... I know how very hard it is to love and trust another man after being hurt so much. I'm glad you were able to get to that place in your life, I hope yo get there one day myself.... lately I've just been working on my health... honestly the man will have to jump through hoops of fire if he is to win my heart ♡
ReplyDeleteawe, thank you so much Launna :) Yes, I never thought this day will come. That I'll smile that often because of Love. It's great to hear that your focused on your health. You deserve a man who's WORTH IT for your love.. :)
DeleteI Love You So Much. Mwuah 😍 😘 😍
ReplyDeleteOh love.. :) I hope he's The One, Rica. Just enjoy and love him for who he is and he'll love you for who you are.
ReplyDeletethanks Hanna :)
DeleteAmazing insights and learnings Rica! Good for you too and I'm wishing you the best.
ReplyDeletethanks Anne :)
DeleteIt's really nice that you're not cynical about love even after the heartbreak. I think everyone goes through that at one point or another, the only difference is how we view it. Whether we close or open our hearts again. Stay happy Rica!;)
ReplyDeleteawe, thanks Rea :)
DeleteI feel you, murag pareha ra man tag experience. Hahaha. Everyone has their breaking points. And whenever I'm pushed to the limit, I always say 'Tawo lang, kapoyon pud!'. My son's father is still with us, not physically as he works abroad, but I no longer see the future with him. Being in good terms is already enough for me at this moment. I'm happy for you. Everyone deserves to be loved.
ReplyDeleteYes I agree with you Che :) we're all human being after all.. THank you Che :)
DeleteWow! As long we learn from past mistakes, we are always going to be equipped better to face future challenges. I am so excited for you.
ReplyDeleteI totally agree with you Carlo :) awe.. thank you..
DeleteSabi nga ni Kris, love love love!
ReplyDeletehahaha! Tama! :)
DeleteThe past molds us to be better and stronger!
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely right Hoven! :)
DeleteNow I'm excited for your next post about this! Keep it coming! I'm not really a fan of love stories but yours is very honest and pure. That's the reason why I got hooked with it. Nice Rica! :)
ReplyDeleteAwe, thaNk you Christy :) I don't usually do this but I guess I'm an open book now..
DeleteThat "Damn! I'm in love!".. aaaawe! It's the best feeling in the world. But as you said, take this one a step at a time. Guard your heart and just be yourself. :)
ReplyDeleteIndeed Emjae! :) it is.. absolutely right about guarding my heart, because as of now things aren't working well.. :'(
DeleteI'm glad you found 'the one' Rica! Hope for your love to last a lifetime!
ReplyDeleteawe, thanks Kath! :)
DeleteAwww so deep Rica! It must be hard for you to share this to the public but you are one brave woman. You faced all challenges by yourself and you are a survivor. Your heartaches in the past are what made you what you are today. :) Stay beautiful Rica! Miss you! <3
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Thank you Jan.. It's really hard but I guess it's worth a shot, my life is an open book now :) awe, I miss you too Jan! I can't wait to see you again.. :)
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You have no idea how much I could relate to this (apart from having a baby though) but yea. What doesn't kill you make you stronger :) All the hurt and the pain will all be worth it for you and your baby in the end. :)
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely right lys! When we love someone, pain comes along, but not too long because eventually you'll get over it and found yourself smiling again.
DeleteWell, that's love. You stumble and fall, but you'd still make it a point to stand up and begin a new one eventually. I am so happy for you, ate Rica! At least you've learned a lot from your previous relationship. Let it guide you towards your future together :) I only wish you the best because you deserve it!
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